I think tumblr is the best way to get out my feelings. Some times its easier to write(type) things down then say it out. And i dont have ppl to judge me on here..(Thanks Guys!)
But anyway, lately I have been very excited and optimistic with whats to come in my future. But also really nervous. I’m only 19 and i think about finding “the right one” all the time. I dont know if this is a good thing or bad thing. But, when I think about the future i see myself with someone, not a job or riches that may come. I guess im just a romantic(haha sappy) but i just feel that something is missing in my life. I have the best friends/family anyone can ask for, go to an amazing school and on track to do something that I love. But there is just one part of me that I think is gone, a missing piece. I want to find out if thats something i lost, or something i have yet to find, however i dont think that will happen any time soon.
Ive loved having the past few months as a way to find out who I really am again. I could have been very negative after the end of summer, but i took it as an opportunity to grow as a person. I just dont think anyone seems to notice it. yeah my friends and family do, but not someone who I may want to be with.
Well, i may be preaching to the choir. lol maybe God needs me to take more time to really find something out, or wait for something or someone to come along. I just need to shake myself off and continue to enjoy the things i have around me, not what i dont have. I’m so blessed to have the people in my life because i once didnt have them, and i dont want to lose them by changing who I am. So, i just want to say i love you all. Ill keep my head up high cause i know God has a plan for all of us, and i finally know that i really do deserve that person in my life :)